Wednesday, October 28, 2009

157

157....uggh!

125......

the difference: 32

32 is the difference between:

* taste of coke vs the taste of water

*the emotional feeling of buttered noodles vs the good feeling of fruits and veggies

*ordering fries vs ordering steamed veggies

*eating a serving for a family of 4 vs eating amount that fits in a serving spoon

*the feeling of fat rolls between your boobs and your lap when sitting vs the feeling of hip bones

*the pain in your hips and legs vs extra energy

*falling asleep in movies or mid day vs sleeping well at night and energy during the day

*embarrassment from your look in clothes vs wearing a belt and a tucked in shirt!

*my lifestyle for the past 36 years vs my lifestyle for the rest of my life

Tuesday, October 27, 2009

disappointment is a never ending circle

I am my biggest disappointment. I guess it is like that with everyone. You can blame your husband, your boss, family or kids but YOU are only struggling with yourself. (or I am)

Things that disappoint me:
*eating....eat bad things, disappoint, eat to feel better, disappoint, eat more bad things

*being over weight...too disappointing to type!!

*money....too disappointing to talk about

*stress leading to frustration leading to anger leading to uncontrolled actions or emotions, disappoint

Webster's Dictionary defines disappoint "to fail to satisfy the hope or expectation of"

I am a christian. I have chosen to walk away from earthly things and focus on Jesus Christ.
I have hope and expectations for myself, but I will always disappoint!!

My Lord has expectations for me, a plan! He is my only hope (contrary to star wars...).

I made the decision to drop everything and follow Christ about 30 years ago. So why do I have these heavy chains wrapped around my feet and hands? Why do I drag bags of disappointment behind me?? Why do I choose to drown in this ocean of stress when freedom surrounds me???

I want that freedom. I get that freedom for a day, sometimes. Then, I look away from Christ and I am heavy...again....with disappointment.....


**this is just an outlet for me...not really a cry for help!! I have all the answers in my heart and sitting in front of me NOW (my Bible)....


Monday, October 19, 2009

Where The Wild Things Are

After many many years, Maurice Sendak finally gave permission for his book to be made into a movie. He liked Spike Jonze and Spike's ideas.

I loved this book. I read it so many times (as a teacher) that I could quote almost the whole book. I was not sure what to expect from this movie. It was obviously going to be MUCH more than the few words in the original book. As I was able to see the previews, I became excited. It would not be animated. It would not have "cgi" monsters.

THEN, last week, I heard a review. The two movie critics said it was a great movie but a tear jerker because of the boy's life. I did not want to see something like that. I do not like movies that make me cry.....on purpose.

My Max really wanted to see this movie!! So, I went!

I have 3 perspectives on this movie. You can decide which person you would relate to and decide if you might like the movie!

Jack is 12 years old. He is not an aggressive child. He takes things literal!!

Max is 10 years old. He lives in his own imaginary world! He creates worlds and new people. Max is more of an aggressive child.

Me! I am 36 years old. A mother, a teacher and skeptic of kid movies.....most do not entertain me.

Jack
Jack did not like the movie AT ALL. He said it was long, boring and did not have a point. He found a few moments very funny. He did not think the "play fighting" with the Wild Things made sense because he found it strange that they would enjoy that kind of play.

Max
Max loved this movie. He repeated several parts of the movie on the way home and getting into bed. He talked about the "wild things world" as if he could actually go there and play with these monsters. I sat by Max and he laughed out loud throughout the movie. He really got the "surprise funny" moments. Even the funny parts that are just to be "seen" and you really have to pay attention!!

Me
I absolutely loved this movie. This child did not have a "horrible" life. It was not a tear jerker. It had some sentimental moments and YES it did bring a tear to my eye. Max, the character, has a family life like many children in this time of life. His parents are divorced. He has a loving mother that is tired and trying to make a life for her family. He misses his dad. He has an older sister that is not "mean" but ignores his attempts to "love" her and get her attention. The movie gives this as a background story. It is done well and not overdramatic.
The Wild Things world was fun, creative, hilarious and very entertaining. From an artistic point of view, the movie was beautiful to watch. From a teacher and mother point of view, the movie was thick with life lessons, boyhood, childhood anger and family dynamics.
The monsters were great. The face was CGI but the body was a puppet suit. It was interesting how the whole movie was "real" and the monsters fit right in!!
What really entertained me was how violent and aggressive this movie was. JUST LIKE A LITTLE BOY! The aggressive play, the yelling, the anger, the sweet moments......
I laughed out loud several times. The dialogue was great and at many times hysterical. There were sight gags, facial expressions, asides, and one liners.

I think most adults would love this movie. I think 6 to 1o year old boys would like the FUN of the movie. "In between" kids might be confused by the deep lessons that are lying below the story. I think that is why Jack did not enjoy the movie. He was not able to "read" into what the monsters were going through and how that relates to the needs of a family.
I think the younger children won't even notice it. They will see it as a story that entertains.
It IS an artistic movie so that may be a turn off to some people.

**I have no clue if there is any bad language. I never notice that in movies....

Wednesday, October 14, 2009

What's that smell???

I have a severe problem......

My car smells.
It has smelled for about a month.
The weird thing is.....it is a different smell ALMOST every time we get in the car.
It started out as a gym -locker- smelly- feet smell. Max had left his soccer shoes in the car. I took them out.
A week later, the smell was still there but a tiny bit different. It had more of a rotten-smelly-feet stink. I realized that I had a bag of shoes, in the back of the car, to take to the Goodwill. I took it to the Goodwill.
Later, there was a musty-mildew-rotten smell. Our sunroof had leaked so I figured it caused the stench. The area dried.
NOW it has a broccoli-poo smell.
WHAT IS GOING ON WITH MY CAR???

The real kicker?? Tomorrow I will mail the last payment on the car. We will be car payment free for the first time in 5 years!!
And the "newly paid for" car smells like an outhouse!!

Monday, October 12, 2009

ZOMBIELAND

As most of you know, Jeff was in town for a week. When he arrived last Monday night, I picked him up at the airport. We went out on a date for the first time in..............I have no idea.

We ate at Salsa, my favorite. I planned the date so I pick. That is the way it works right??

We then went to see Zombieland.
We entered the theater and I looked around. There were about 15 guys. I whispered to Jeff "I am the only girl". Jeff then whispered "I am the only guy with a date!" Before the movie started, two other females appeared with some guys.

In the first few minutes, I was a little disappointed because I quickly figured out that it was a comedy and not my favorite kind of zombie/vampire movies!! The disappointment did not last long. It was funny, entertaining, gross and very creative with some "effects". There was a surprise in the movie which I LOVED!!!

I would love to see the movie again when it comes to Netflix! I give this movie 4 head bashes! (out of 5)
I still think Shawn of the Dead was better, but this one is a close 2nd!!

30 Days of Night is #1 for "serious" zombie/vampire!!

Saturday, October 3, 2009

I AM ALICE

Like most kids, I dreamed of being a rock star. The difference in my dream is.....it is seriously STILLl my dream. Sounds crazy? Well it is true. If I could do or be anything I wanted to be, I would be a rock star!! I love rock music! I actually love all music except Opera, Country and Christian Pop . My biggest obstacle is that I can not sing.

I recently thought about this dream of mine because I am turning 36 this month. Most people are on the road or headed to what they want to accomplish in life. I have already accomplished what I want! I have 2 great boys and the best husband. Other than those 3 guys......there isn't anything else important on this earth. (except you who are reading this of course)

So back to my "dream life".
Cindi Lauper was 36 years old when she entered the rock n roll world. So I could do it!! Age is not an issue.
Johnny Cash, Green Day, Nirvana, and many others could not sing. But they have great music!! So I could do it!! Voice is not an issue.
There are "not-so-beautiful" famous rockers. So I could do it!! Looks are not an issue.
I love to wear grungy clothes and mix them into my own fashion. I love to dye my hair different colors. So I could do it!!

I even have a stage name. ALICE....(you know like, Reba, Cher, Kiss)
It is my middle name. I never liked it growing up. Not sure why. Maybe I thought it sounded old. I probably did not like it because I did not know any other people named Alice. AND Margaret people were either nerdy or old ladies.
Alice has become my alter ego....or maybe the real me. Margaret looks plain and wears simple plain clothes. Alice would love to wear "goth" or "punk" clothes and make up!!
Margaret tries to not draw attention to herself and does not like people to look at her.
Alice would love to ROCK out on stage in front of millions. Alice would have a bass player, drummer and electric guitar player. Margaret has frizzy fro out of control curly hair with grey highlights. Alice would have straight hair. Blond with colorful stripes. Margaret rarely wears make up. And if she does, it is only eyeliner and lipstick. Alice would outline her eyes with the dark black pencil and wear dark lipstick. Margaret wears whatever Walmart and Target have on clearance. Alice would wear multicolored t-shirts, skirts, tights and boots. Margaret does not like to leave her house. Alice would love being famous and travel all over the world.

I wonder if Alice will ever appear.......



Thursday, October 1, 2009

How did I get this guy??

After 40 days, we were able to see Jeff for two nights and one day. He is back in Philly for another "while". I still have normal complaints BUT I have a great man!!!

This pic is Jeff in Philly. 7 days a week he is in front of a computer dealing with lawyers (I might have some lawyer readers so I will keep my opinions to myself) hee hee
1. He truly would love to spend every moment with me and the boys. (but not in the house, he gets cabin fever)

2. He reads his Bible daily and seeks wisdom from God and not from man. (he calls the boys and talks to them about what they are reading in their Bibles)

3. He would do anything I ask. (but after 14 yrs I do get some huffs or looks and comments.....and he hates ordering pizza)

4. He never complains or blames the family for not being able to work in his shop when he is in town. (actually the last time he had time to work in his shop....he was in there 10 minutes and we got the call that dad was having a heart attack.....love ya dad!)

5. He never tells me how to wear my hair, what clothes to wear, to wear make-up, etc. I have friends whose husbands do that....that is odd to me. (lately he did make a comment that I look nice in skirts.....I bought some last week!!)

6. He asks my opinion about finances, job related dilemmas, life questions, etc. He makes me feel smart and needed.

7. He lets me be a stay-at-home-mom and still makes me feel like I am contributing to the famiy.

8. When I weighed 120 lbs, he told me I was beautiful. When I weighed 200 lbs, he told me I was beautiful. I now weigh !$^ lbs and he tells me I am beautiful.......out of the blue!!

9. He is not high-maintenance. I do not have to do anything to keep him happy and content. (well, he doesn't really like my hip hop music or a few of my movies)

10. He risks his life to tell me when I need an attitude adjustment. (at the time I want to kill him.....but later I appreciate it)